april through may...

A lot has happened within two months. I figured snapshots of our life would be easiest to start out with and end with some recent thoughts :)

Easter 

{Weekend Celebration:} 

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{BYU Easter Egg Hunt = Crazy}

{Easter Sunday} 

{uncle grants}

Park Time With a Cute Babe

{Family Favorites:}

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{Loves playing with dad} 

{Believe it or not she does sit
down for a quick second break}

{She saw ducks in the water
and wanted to see them but
cried every time they got
close to us. It was quite
hilarious.} 

Recent Thoughts

{Laa Dee Daa:}

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Our home has been somewhat out of place as of late. About a month ago Ry was always gone at the library after working studying for the GMAT until he took the test. Now he is preparing for his work Summit in Park City. He has recently had a higher work load with some changes that have happened in the office. Me and the babe don't get to see him until about bedtime. It is hard but

I AM VERY PROUD OF HIM. 

He has been pushing himself a lot lately. It wasn't the easiest adjustment, almost feels like college again with never seeing each other but with a kid in the mix this time. I have always loved his work ethic. Hours are long but he loves what he does. The most I can do is support him and do my best to make things simple and relaxing at home. The best part is how happy Blaire is when he gets home. The time they get to spend together is so precious and I am thankful that Ryan knows that. All this time he spends doing what he loves in all aspects of his live will be worth it one way or another. Only 3 more weeks of this craziness!

US GIRLS LUCKED OUT WITH RYBEN3. 

I am also lucky for him to be a father to our 2nd babe! 

Baby boy B is growing and moving around like crazy! It is actually my favorite part of pregnancy. :) I forgot how much I amazed by it. He is sitting fairly lower than Blaire did so I am cramping a lot more this time around.

I am 30/31 weeks, don't really crave anything haha not that exciting. I am still nauseous here and there. Typical. I don't have GD (that test really isn't that bad, tastes like gatorade) but I am very anemic this time around. I notice it too because I am really really tired and my bruises don't go away (I am the biggest klutz every in the world especially as a pregnant gal). I pulled some stomach muscles and my ribs on both sides are out of place constantly. This is one thing I don't like, but comes with the package in my case. 

HOWEVER,

ribs out of place or not, I am very thankful to have this experience again. Some days are better than others but to be blessed with the ability to carry my own children is something I don't take for granted. It could all be over any second too, every moment counts! :) 

{And no we do not have a name yet. And no, we are not naming him Braun after Lebron James. Regardless of what my adorable husband thinks. So far we agree on Brooks but don't really want to do a theme thing like 'B' names for our kiddos. Who knows, it changes everyday with what we like. Technically we have nothing as of now.} 

Anyways, in the next couple weeks I will be visiting family and having little adventures here and there. I will have more to write about. Stay tuned friends! 

Much Love,

JPB

{ps: Ryan and I are obsessed with Scandal. What the addicting} 

he is risen...

Easter. Enlightened. Essential.

Easter for me usually involves egg picking/finding with family. This year I didn't even get to do that or dye eggs. Which is fine but it does add some fun for random festivities. 

My mom {Sherri} went to Vegas this past weekend and had has watch her car. We picked her up on Sunday and had a yummy Easter dinner! It was nice having her here since she hasn't seen Baby B in so long.

She actually told us she went to "Walk With Christ" before Vegas and really liked it. It is in Pocatello. They do it every year around Easter and it's just about Christs' last week before he died. Pretty neat experience for her to have. We were happy she enjoyed it. 

I also enjoyed Easter a lot more this year because I realized how important to me it actually is. Enlightened you could say. 

I have always had a testimony of Christ but I hadn't realized how much it has changed.

I remember when I knew I had my own testimony. It was before I went through the temple. I was in my interview with the stake president{Henry J. Eyring-seriously looks exactly like his dad haha mind boggling}and we had some small talk but then he just simply asked me:
"tell me your testimony of Jesus Christ"

I never had been asked that question in that form. I don't know why it took me off guard but it did. I paused and new exactly what I wanted to say and I did because of what I felt. 

I just told him I know my Savior loves me. Heavenly Fathers sacrifice and plan for us to have a Savior is hard to understand but I know it is essential. Both of their love for everyone, including me, is unconditional. 

Overtime, the above is what I knew but over the past 3 years I have come to know more of why I have that testimony and why I need it.

The gift of the Atonement is used in many different ways for everyone. That word, Atonement, was always strange before I knew what it meant to me in that interview with President Eyring. I didn't know how to 'use' it or live it. It wasn't until after I had Blaire that I knew what that kind of love meant. {still not as much but a touch of that sacrifice Heavenly Father made for his Son}

To have something you created in your hands for the first time is indescribable. You don't know that love until you experience it.
Before Blaire was born I started reading my scriptures and praying more regularly and after. I became closer to the spirit because I realized what my priorities were and should be. {still working on that}

I prayed for patience, to be calm, knowing how to love Blaire unconditionally as He does for us, and more. I felt the spirit in a new way and I don't want that to change.

I am truly thankful for a giving Savior. He is someone who knows me and the only person who knows how I feel at all times. He lives and is a cause for me to overcome my death. If I don't cherish that gift he has given us, which is life itself, I will have lost what it truly means to love. Forgiveness, repentance, and adjusting my life to be as He is is essential and a true reminder of why we celebrate Easter. 

I know He died for me and I know I can feel His love at all times. I am never forgotten. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

{I am excited to see where my testimony grows in the next few years to find what more I have learned. We all struggle and find our testimony in our time. Don't hesitate to know little by little what his gift can enlighten for you. I am saying this because I did miss out on a lot and can't have that time back. However, no regrets. Again, don't wait it's not worth it.}

With much love,

JPB

{I wrote a main blog page of what has been going on the past month of March. This post is 4 of 6 that I have written. I have posted this link as an easier way to find them. Enjoy!}